Dream without Fear. Love without limits.

Sorry I haven’t been on our posted in ages. I’ve been really busy. Being a mom, working a full time 9-5 job that requires a 30min+ drive there and back, and Sam being in school is way time consuming & super demanding. It’s harder than I thought to be honest. But I’ll be on hopefully tomorrow to catch up on everything. 

Hope you’re all doing well. :)

My son is a stud!

inspiredreambelievemusicbeauty replied to your post: Jace wanted to type on my keyboard, this is what he has to say: (haha)

Aww Jace is already wanting to enter the tumblr world. You should make a second tumblr all about Jace…. jusyn

I actually have a private one where I write him letters and post pictures and videos. And I’ll show it to him one day. 

Pretty soon I’m going to give you, Allison, Mandy, and Sam the password so that you can submit letters and pictures to him too.

fderrrrrrrr3aa5fvghjmmm bnbncgv bnn hj, tmjbunmm                      m nnbbbbbbb hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhnnnnmjko,mohbk r gxxbn uibtmgu

THIS GIRL!!

Sam took Jace to see his mom for the weekend, and I am going to see the old gang at Purdue for the weekend and celebrate Grand Prix.

I am super pumped to have some time to myself. This will be the longest I have ever been away from Jace. I am nervous and anxious about the weekend for the same reason. Don’t get me wrong I know Sam can totally take care of him, it’s just well I’ve never been away from Jace for more than a few hours, let alone a few days. And the few times I’ve gone out without Jace it has either been to run errands, or on a date with Sam. I love Sam and I love our dates, and I love Jace more than I have ever loved anyone or anything..he’s my world. But I really think this weekend will be good for us. Jace can have some time with just his dad and his grandma Samantha, I can have some time with my friends, Sam’s mom can have sometime with him, Sam and I can have sometime away for ourselves away from each other (which I think everyone needs sometimes), and my parents can have a baby free house this weekend. I really think this is going to be a great weekend for everyone.

Allison, My son Jace & I, and Jessica at Josh’s going away party.

He matched the baseball cupcakes.

A week later & I am still only 1cm dilated.

Dr. Kinsey wants me to try and wait it out a little bit longer and see if Jace will come on his own over the weekend.

As of Friday I will be 1 week overdue so if he doesn’t come own his own I have to go back to the doctor on Monday to discuss my “options.” 

I cried when the doctor left the exam room.

I don’t want options, I want him to fucking come out & if he’s not here by Monday I want to be put in the hospital and induced, because I am already so damn uncomfortable that I can’t do anything & I want to hold me son.

I can’t…